월요일, 10월 31, 2005
Heh ok my mood is much better today as compared to yesterday. Think i still prefer school days to weekends. Heh mad. But staying at home to study alone really brings out the worst in me. Somehow la. Today was quite nice actually. Nice physio tutorial by nice philip moore (he's really funny) and also nice microb lect by erm i cant rem his name at the moment..but he's q amusing also.
Den in between i was with angel n thomas rotting away outside the med library. Now den i realise that the place is quite nice also. Natural wind and can observe pple. Lol. Guess people watching is still my favourite activity after so many years. Since sec sch when me and juline will always just sit there and stare at pple passing by. Its interesting u noe.
Hmm den i also got 2 sweets todae from pple dressed up for halloween! Even took a pic with one of them n angel n thomas. But hafta wait til the guy puts it up. Heh. The make up they had were pretty nice though..=p
Den after lect, went home with michelle and her fren. Err im so sorry to say i forgot the guy's name even though we talked quite abit on the way home. If anyone noes, pls tell me. Siyu and thomas took e train with us until jurong east only cos they went for dinner. Yaps, jus the two of them. Ohh, and i dunno why i actually managed to get up 95 n the mrt todae. Well in the sense that today the bus n the mrt just din seem that crowded as when i went home alone. Lol..den i was telling michelle that she prob scared everyone off. =) Even kit yi, kaywee n gang managed to get up the same 95...miracle desune..but the bad thing is that now another 2 pple think the wrong thing abt me n _ _ _ _ _ _... >_<
Hmm..i noe it may sound mushy but im still glad to have my frens. My mood brightens when im with them somehow. Heh ok better stop here or else pple will think that im running a fever or what. But anyway i just wanna say a big thanks to all the pple who makes my day~~
N im glad tmr is deepavali! haha ok for once. Nope do not get me wrong im not racist. Its just that im not well, indian. Simple enuf ba..
Why issit so hot todae even though i haf my hair tied up? Sheesh..
일요일, 10월 30, 2005
Sometimes i kinda think im very silly. Why do i bother doing something that pple cant appreciate? I must be outta my mind. But oh well, i cant be bothered now. Let people think what they wanna think cos its their minds and i very well cant do anything much about it.
Exam tension must be getting to me. I swear i must try to keep to my schedule cos its only another 17 more days to my first paper. Sianzz..
Just feel like grumbling these few days. 怎么办？Control control control..my temper is usually very good one leh. Dunno why everytime near exams then it will turn for the worse. Not that i will flare up or what la cos i will neva do that outside. But my mood kinda affects my studies. Which is not a good thing cos i really want to get things done at this period of time. Kk, i shld really organise my priorities and ignore whatever rubbish that is bothering me.
After all, they are just rubbish.
Some pple, they just like to take you for granted and step all over your head. Why, you may ask. Nah nothing much, in fact the biggest reason is very much simple and ordinary : convenience. U know. U are always there. Maybe i shld stop being there. So that i wun say stupid things and u wun need to listen to me say stupid things. Does that solve everything now? Does it? Fine, so be it.
Ok i admit im grumbling again. COntroL!! Argh. This is kinda hard. Im trying my best already, la.
금요일, 10월 28, 2005
Bored. I dunno what i should be doing right now. So bored to the extent that i really went to dl irc and step again into the world of lameness. Ok i admit i was an avid fan of it way back in jc. But that was like 3 yrs ago. Now i think its quite childish n bo liao. But when u are bored u dun have much choice do u.
As i said, beggars cant be choosers.
So here im again, talking to pple i hardly noe with no aims. Nah, i dun go irc to know prospective mates. I go there cos..cos what huh. Well, i dunno. Just to kill time ba. Cos i stare at my msn list and i realise i dun even talk to half of them online. N considering i only have 46 pple on my list..now u get the picture. One word : pathetic.
Guess i depend on some pple too much. Shldnt be doing that i guess. Cos its utterly wrong to do so. If they are not around, boredom just seeps into u. Period. But i can tell u that the feeling is just horrid. Ok i admit i dun have much affinity with pple, i dun communicate well but surely there are pple out there who like being with me ba.
*yawns*
Shld i try sleeping at 930 todae? Cos im super sian. N im bored to tears.
I suddenly rem my irc days back in jc. Kinda miss the pple i used to talk to there. But dunno why #njc seems kinda of 冷清 now. Even #sngs is as bad. I must be getting old. How i wish i could turn back time. Cos there are a couple of things i really regret. But time waits for noone. That much i know.
Do pple dunno how they feel?
Well, maybe they do if their neuron system is not working properly. Probably sedated. Thats y.
Just had my jap project todae. Its horrible thru n thru but i dun care much. Dunno why n when i stopped caring abt my test grades anymore. But ya i dun. Well to put it more accurately, of cos i will still feel a slight sense of loss and disappointment but that feeling disappears as quickly as it comes. I mean i just dun see the need to feel sad over something that i cant change. But yes, i still force myself alot when it comes to studies. Cos i just cant stand not getting the results i want. But my determination has been dwindling ever since i came to uni. Slightly below perfect grades in primary, secondary and even jc. But in uni, i actually let them dip. Think 12 yrs of education has taken its toll on me.
I shld be studying right now. Even though i always say grades are not everything, im still a major slave to it.
Sorry, boredom and the need to study always makes me in a bad mood.
倘若公主不开心的时候，王子会想尽办法让公主的脸上再次绽放笑容吗？
Hmm, jus now i was watching mars n it made me even more convinced that i hope somedae someone will lend me his jacket..lol. Think the feeling will be quite sweet ba. But singapore guys like dun really wear jackets, not to say nice ones. So i must wait long long.
목요일, 10월 27, 2005
Hmm..today an idiot jus told me my nose is really round. This idiot neva fails to hiam me everytime he sees me. Can somebody tell me that i can beat him up someday pls? Lol. Anyway the pic with my tb class.
Hope the pic doesnt come out too big cos i think i look horrible in it. Anyway thats not the main point. But frankly most of the time i try to keep myself out of photos cos i dun like taking. Not fotogenic mah. Hmm..this yr my tb class not bad, though i din really get to know some very well lah. But the pple im closer with..starting with kayee..the first ger in green on the top right. Heh yaps..thats my new found fren i mentioned previously. Den the 4th n 5th gers from the top right..Aw san and Chan san..Suzuki sensei somehow always mix me n aw san up cos of our surnames. Heh. N so qiao..cos she stays in sembawang too. Den besides them the ger with specs is baihui..all 3 of them i knew in jap level 2 actually. In the front row from the left, its jaron, followed by my sensei..Hmm those all the few im closer to ba. The rest gt speak to them but not much. Haha ok i left out the guy in green. Which is the idiot i was saying anyway. my good fren. super 'good' to me. (read the sarcasm =p) kaywee san.
Yaps thats my tb class. But actually hor..my jap class revolve ard only 3 pple at most. TA,TB and lect--kayee n kaywee (heh i noe..their names differ by a W only..) TC--kayee n yashi...like abit pathetic hor. But i quite like the arrangement la. Rather haf 2 or 3 close frens than so many acquaintances.
Hmm..its going to rain soon again. I noe i love rain..but still..pls do not rain when im outside. Lol i prefer to have rain when im safely tucked away in my own bed..
수요일, 10월 26, 2005
Hmm..abit seeing stars right now. Cos i feel sleepy!! its a chronic thought. lol. Heh today's entry abit special..cos writing it for my dear fren..haha..'dear'. Cos she's writing one for me too in her blog. =p
Just a note: my msn is going bonkers again todae. Okok i noe its nth new..so sad.
I feel sad for myself.
Heh oops im digressing. Yaps..my dear fren is none other than kayee from my jap class..heh now i keep associating her with minnie mouse. Cute mah. Although personally i prefer mickey cos i still think minnie is mickey with a ribbon. Haha ok im not a feminist. Anyway by some strange twist of fate, i actually have all my 3 jap tuts with her n we din even know each other before that. So, after that we became good frens! Heh yaps thats the end of my wonderful story..^_^
Like me, we look quiet but can be pretty noisy n crappy in front of close frens. Heh i think thats our greatest similarity le..read that she wans to go on a trip to anywhere..heh nihon e ikitaidesuka? isshoni iku yo..*beaMs*
These few days i just feel super sleepy. Think i got the sleeping sickness caused by the Tsetse fly (pronounced as seh-ssi). N nope i dun think it scores in the looks dept. Lol. U go and find one and see yourself lor. Den after that do tell me how it looks like. If it helps, find a female one. =p
Sleepiness makes me crappy. Heh.
I desperately need to start studying!! Someone pls motivate me...
목요일, 10월 20, 2005
I miss young jae n i miss ji-eun. Sigh. I dunno why but i get goosebumps everytime i hear or see anything relating to full house nowadays. Even just listening to the soundtrack or seeing the ad on scv can have that effect leh. weird..i think i miss the show too much. But somehow, i dun feel like rewatching it. Yet. Cos if i start watching i will surely rewatch everything all over again..n i simply dun have time to do that!
But i still miss young jae..
*_*
Hope his new show faster comes out so i can have my 精神寄托 again. Lol. But seriously, i hate it when shows come to an end. I mean i do wan to see til the end but at the same time i also loathe the time that it really does. Ok confliction. But i think alot of pple feel the same way as i do ba. So im still normal. Right??
Hmm dun think anyone from my jap class will be reading this so i can safely write that im leaving for genting tmr. Yesh, tmr. Which is a fri if anyone forgets. My mum's wonderful idea. So i will be missing my jap listening quiz. -_-
N i cant help but lament: why am i taking jap instead of korean??
Think i keep saying that. How nice if i was actually taking korean 3 now..
I think i really need to go japan soon cos if i dun i will surely lose all interest in it at the rate im going..supposed to watch the kyoko fukada n hideaki show on scv but in the end, i was to lazy to do so..
Exams are coming soon..sianz.
월요일, 10월 10, 2005
Hai, im bored again. After completing one mb report, physio assignment and protein lab report, all i wanna do now is slack...but the thought of my 2nd mb report is nagging at me constantly. Ok i noe its due on thur..and its barely 2 daes away and i also noe the tortoise speed at which i do my reports..but still...
chotto yasumi mo iidesu ka?
Lazy to write in jap.
Lazy to do jap homework.
Lazy to sleep.
Lol.
Think my jap is deteriorating at breakneck speed.
Where is my korean module??
Sad.
Fine, i give up.
I think i shld do my jap homework after all.
*waves white flag dejectedly*
Monday blues la.
Yay i finally finished doing my protein lab report!! *_* heh. Was worried that i couldnt complete it on time to hand in later ( yaps cos now is 7.43am on mondae morning). N i think angel was quite shocked also cos i only embarked on it last evening. Hee.. paiseh paiseh. Hope the report wasnt too badly done..
Actually supposed to have another entry that i wrote the day before but the irritating connection died on me again of all time so that entry wasnt saved. Den i was too lazy to rewrite cos it was a bother. So like that lor. Forgot what i said alreade la. Memory aint that good u noe. Ehh sometimes la, and selectively lor. Lol.
Oops i almost forgot to print my envtmental mb notes for later's lect. Heng i rem. Hmm, anyway what else was i goin to sae..ohh i splurged on another jacket from esprit on sat..heh cldnt resist the temptation cos i was eyeing it for quite long. Shall not divulge the price cos it is really quite hefty for a jacket. Heh. Spent my tuit pay on it. (not all of it la) but i love it cos the material is satin, n its in a colour i like, n it also comes with a hood and a cute charms thingy that hangs on the zip..nice hor~~ =) heh okok i shall try to refrain myself in the future...
Kk really gotta rush liao cos i must leave the house by 830!!
목요일, 10월 06, 2005
Well, i have officially finished watching my full house as of tuesday. So its exactly 2 days since the greatest show in my life ended. (ok, one of the greatest, cos he has more shows) But the obsession cum love-affair with jeong ji hoon continues...heh. Nah, im not a psychotic stalker watsoever. Though i do admit, i like rain alot n alot. =) Hee. Seeing him everyday never fails to bring a smile to my face. I sound like i describing a crush hor. But i have yet to find anyone in real life that comes close to him lah. If got, 就好了. I know what angel wanna say, but he only resembles abit ba. So not counted....lol.
Heh, cos of full house, now i seem to like flowers too. Think i only received flowers twice in my entire life n it was cos i asked for it. Pathetic hor. But frankly, last time i used to dismiss flowers as useless stuff. Din see what u can do with them, besides dumping them into the garbage bin after they wilt a few days later. Now i want le, but nobody wanna give me. Hiaks.
Hmm today i finally got to know my fren better. Heh. In the sense that usually i barely have the chance to say more than a few words to her. But today cos kw din sit with me during jap lect so i had the opportunity to sit with her. Heh she's very cute wor. (Im not les hor) I mean as in the first few times i spoke to her i alreade thought so. That kind sweet sweet den voice v soft one. Realised that actually thru my jap classes, i did manage to know quite a couple of good frens. But abit ke xi now that the semester is more than halfway thru le den i know her better..
Oh n today when i saw kw's hair i couldnt resist laughing. Lol. Dun think he will be reading this so im safe. Purposely ignored me n stepped on my slipper somemore..idiot.
Yay tmr is my shopping day with angel. Heh. Retail therapy works for me anytime. Really leh. Sometimes when u are feeling down, buying something that u want somehow makes everything seem less bleak. It may sound childish to some pple, but its the perfect solution to cheer me up. *hint hint* Heh no lah im not feeling down, i just feel deprived. Lol. Deprived of shopping. Hope tmr i will be able to see things i want. Cos because of tmr's trip, i have to work doubly hard in order to finish pia-ing all my lab reports n assignments. Argh..the thought of them sickens me out..
Oh n i realise something today after i came out of cold storage with my mum.
Im a self-confessed hardcore Mentos spearmint addict. =p
Ask anyone close to me, n they will nod their heads vigorously in agreement. Right?
화요일, 10월 04, 2005
Heh, now i am back to loving young jae again. This despite the fact that im still at disc 19 which stopped at the scene where he told ji-eun that its time for him to go back to hye won's side. Sad sad. But its still a wonderful show la..and i simply love it. Hiaks what will i do when i finally finish watching? =(
Hmm, been on a search frenzy recently especially ever after angel taught me..heh. Lotsa bi in my comp, which i dun even have time to sit back n watch! N now im on the hunt for my shinhwa, kangta, kim jae won etc..realised i do like alot of pple. But of cos i dun go nuts over every single one of them la. Or else i will be super busy n super broke le. But i still like the feeling of liking. Just like some pple who are in love with the the idea of being in love. The logic is the same ba.
Finally went thru all my midterm tests le. Cant say it was a breeze cos it was really more of a tsunami. Lol. Think the mb test was the worst la.Last paper n it had to turn out lydat. The lecturers win hands down lor. I applaud them. Ok, maybe it was cos i din really study all. Fine..
Yesterdae was talking to zhiwei on msn. Heh n he managed to dig out part of a conversation 2 mths ago on rain. Cos that time he was asking me if i liked rain, den i answered in a nonchalant way that ya i like, cos i like all korean singers. Yap, that was the answer i gave, without even giving it a second thought. N it made me realise that actually i knew of rain long time ago but i never really paid any attention to him when he first appeared. Regret wor.
I still rem the very first time i saw him was in his 'how to escape the sun' mtv on mtvasia. That time i was still thinking to myself that i din really like his dance cos he was wearing this big shades in the mtv which din appeal to me big time. (Heh of cos now i would sae he looks great in the mtv, but thats not the point.) N i also rem there was once i was at ry's house watching mtvasia n rain was performing. N again, i din pay much attention to it..Idiot!!
If only i could turn back time...
토요일, 10월 01, 2005
Okok for once, i hated rain. But to put it more accurately, i hate young jae! Especially the first time when ji-eun asked for a divorce n told him that she liked him. Grrrrr...young jae was such a cad..hiaks. i cant believe im actually dissing him here when i adore him so much. but his reaction was really unacceptable n totally jerk-ish. lets just hope his character gets better. cos i really cant stand him now..
*pissed*
Hmm, no matter what show i watch, somehow i always end up getting too engrossed in it. Lovers in paris was like that, 海豚湾恋人 was also lydat, n now full house is also lydat. N the irony is that full house is supposed to be a lighthearted romance comedy. so why do i feel so sad upon watching it??
Sheesh.
But i know without all the disgusting scenes, pple probably wun appreciate the better ones. Just like they say in order to feel happy, u must feel sad as well. how else would u be able to tell whether something is 'happy' or 'unhappy' if thats not the case? I dun deny the truth in it, but still its still a fallacy to me. Given a choice, i would rather do without both. Ok that sounds a bit pessimistic. But occasionally pple do feel that way, dun they?
悲伤的转弯是快乐。把每一件快乐的事当作玻璃弹珠塞满瓶子，那么幸福就永远属于你了。